the morning of may 25th, 2025

[leveretlipped]

underwhelmed.

if i'm being honest i would like to sleep for another two hours but i don't think that's in the cards for me. for now i'll work on my website(?) and look at cute stuff(?) until i can make myself feel better. don't know why i feel like shit this early in the morning. maybe it's because i feel ignored or something. not ignored in the traditional sense. a different way. but that can be attributed to a plethora of things. mostly insecurities. nothing new under the sun.

i am off work today and tomorrow but i'm at a loss as to how i will spend my days. i think tomorrow (god willing) i'll go to CVS and get my desired 4x6 photos printed out. i want to start building my photo album! it's not going to be anything crazy but i would rather my children/grandchildren/any other sentient beings that raid this planet to be able to see my life through physical images and not. through the screen of an iphone or something. it's a strong desire of mine.

whenever i go to the cafe with my beloved the girl behind the counter always gives me a large cold brew instead of a small. perhaps she is trying to kill me?