the afternoon of may 20th, 2025

[leveretlipped]

thoroughly enjoying my read-through of house of leaves. i haven't been this attached to a book in a long time. as of writing this entry i am over halfway done. johnny my beloved... i understand you wholly... wholly doesn't look like a word so i had to confirm that it was. has my vocabulary dulled that much?

after 2 pm i get to see my boyfriend in the flesh. we plan on playing more expedition 33. it's been a great deal of fun watching him play. i love rpgs and i'm happy to have found someone who shares in this passion.

i've been sitting in a corner of the library totally alone for the past couple of hours. i love being alone. it's been very comforting to me as of late. i think perhaps i'm not meant to be the social butterfly with 50 friends that i've been trying to be. i'm much different than the people i interact with on a daily basis. not that i'm "more special" than them or something stupid like that. i'm just fundamentally different and i'm not meant to be surrounded by people. my purpose is greater than that. other people and relationships are a distraction... but i'll still talk to people when they talk to me. that's just good manners.

goodbye for now.